I am a shame. I never expected to fail in that way. I always was thinking I was capable to make you happy. I was learning all I could. An in the end, in a rare and controversial point, I failed. And something broke. I felt very bad about it, all was my fault,but at the end I was thinking: Everything is my fault. nevertheless I realize that is true, everything is my fault, but that is because I am the only one who move the pieces,
I am not sure if we are playing rol and you want to be the storyteller, or you are waiting to something magic happen. I have made a big effort to this relation did work, I always said to myself that everything is true and all of that worth it. But apparently you have a different plan, you prefer makes me feel in the uncertainty, never saying yes or not, instead of making me feel safe, you always show me an unestable view. So, yeah, everything is my fault, and I want to fixed it, but only with one condition.
You need to show a minimum piece of interest, that you really care for this works, you only need to demostrate a tiny tiny sample of affection. Tell me with your actions that you want this, that you believe in a future of us. If you don't, then all of this doesn't make sense.
I am exhausting of play this game and never see the top, I love this game, I enjoy a lot, but it's hard and takes a lot time, so now I need to know if it will become in something else or I have to stop playing it. Don't misunderstand me, I am always going to love you, but I will be a watcher instead a player. It's really hurting me to saying that, because I always believed in the posibility.
Please react, please decide. Now it's your turn to move the pieces. Break something, or break me.
