Good bye my friend

As if all my life were not enough, now you are gone.

I going to miss you so much, cause you was a true friend.

Maybe you don't understand words, but you understand love, and that is what matters.

You leave me so many memories, over 16 years, at this moment it is 2/3 of my life, i can't remember my life without you.

I need apologize with you, cause i leave you so many times, even when i go to study my career, i let you in home, with the family. Every time i back i loved to see you.

I didn't know how to be a good keeper, and i'm sorry for that, may be that will be help you... maybe not... Life is very strange. You didn't care about it, and i appreciated that so much.

You always be happy, and i want remember you in that mood. We never really fight, we just have differences.

I will keep your memory for the rest of my life, i promise you.

And I going to remind everyone, you was a member of this family and you always going to have your place.

That was the most painful farewell in my life, but i'm glad now you are in peace.

This is the end my dear friend, i always going to love you.

I am a big disappointment

No, this is not about my terrible English.

At this time, i could count my uncompleted tasks in life (even in the year), i only fail and fail again.

Probably is my fault for aim big targets, but it's people fault cause they say me that i can do it...

But is my fault again because i make they think than i'm good and smart (and handsome... shut up self stem), although it's they fault because they don't test me in a hard situation...

Anyway i have the guilt, i allow this affect me, all about this stuff depress me. Cause i'm not enough good for that people who say i am good in things. But i should not worry about what other people say about me. So, the problem is i can only disappoint myself...

I really want be better...

Internet says, you should only compare with your older you, maybe Internet is right. But it's hard.

I know what i can do, but maybe i am to lazy to do it, i can't blame other people for not push me to better things, maybe in my childhood, but now... I'm totally capable to do things.

"You can do anything, but you can't do everything". That phrase touches very depth in my thoughts.

So that mean, i need to choose things, and i need organize my time, and avoid distracting stuffs (like games and Internet because they have a big impact in my time and my reward mental system).

I hate myself in this moment. But, at the same time, i hate fail to people and myself, and i enjoy challenges... So, here i come.

How to be better in school

Ok maybe i'm not the best person to say something about study, because i hated so much... It's so boring! But hey! I survived and i have my bachelor degree (in anytime). Maybe a lot of people are gonna say things like "Yeah, but you are smart" or "But i can't", and a long list of prejudices.

I will make a list of things in my mind about this topic... so, this will be fast.

1. Be curious. If you learn something new, maybe you can think new questions about that subject, like in history, a certain year for a whatever event, you may learn what happens in the same time in another region, or the consequence for that event.

2.- Learn new things. Everyday if you can, probably not in school. In this time and maybe the time when you are reading this (Except if the Internet collapse... although may be you can't read this... anyway), you can investigate in Internet and learn a lot stuff, sometimes useful and others... well i learn how to tying shoelaces faster... you judge it.

3.- Enjoy learning. Many people don't care about what they learn, but you can share your new knowledge about whatever random fact and be satisfied if the listen to you. Any fun fact can be useful in the future, trust me.

4.- Learn in your particular way. I know so many persons who says "Maths is really hard", i think that is because they try to learn the method of the professor, and they fail because his professor stinks teaching. So, you can see algorithms in maths, and you can try to do Inverse engineering and find the way that work, then you can make your own method and save the day. That's what i try to teach to other people, think by yourself.

5.- Memory is practice. If you can't memorize a lot of useless facts or words or definitions, you can use absurd technique to learn it, like nemotechnique (or however writes in english). You need to practice this stuff, maybe with in random book, a random paragraph, and repeat it. Or maybe you can make didactic material and study with that, sometimes the make process works more than the study. And the infallible method, "play" memorize with another person, that helps a lot.

6.- Learn with someone else. The academic path is hard and heavy, but if you have some friend, maybe it will become more enjoyable and fun (I hope, if not, what kind of friend have you?). And you can add, like a negative motivation, a rival or people saying to you that "you can't", that helps a lot, cause you can show them back his mistake. But seriously, with friend or a random happy people, you can compare results, you can study together , you can make team and more important, you can enjoy learning.

That's all for now, maybe i will update the post in a future if i remember more tips (Historically that never happens). If you estimated reader have another advice for the future generations, please share with us in the commentary section.

(And please, tell me my mistakes in my writting)