You are part of the system, but don't overestimate my comment, you are only a pawn, easy replaceable, and you like that way to live, because you don't need to think.
How does it feels that you need someone to tell you how to live?
Are you happy being the someone else puppet? Cause that is what you are when you choose not be free, you life belong to the system. And you go and work and think "yeah, this is what i want", so where is the dreams? Being the best? I don't want to be the best slave... I choose my studies because that is what i like to do, and i need a work for apply them.
But that is not the only problem, you need more than that, you need a society to rule your world, you need specific instructions to how to be a good man. So you follow a trend, and you feel comfort and safe.
I don't blame you, it's hard to be independent, because the freedom can make you crazy, and live like an hedonist, the fun is so attractive and you have so much time, or at least, that's what you think. But the reality is different, you have a limit and you need to be satisfied.
Are you happy with your life? It's enough good? I think never is enough, but we can have some breaks for clear the mind.
You are alone in this world, and you need to be strong. If you want to follow your dreams, you are late for learn stuff. Why do you need someone tell you that? You will never reach far if you don't work.
How does it feels not be free? I don't want that.
