Less human

Ok, I have to admit it, I am the problem. I hate everyone (like always), I there is a lot of thing about what I can complain.

Yes, I miss all of that, I miss you... And now I understand that there is not much difference, about my actitude, I still think a lot about it. Aparently I really cared about you. But now I have to be objective (like always)...

Maybe it's not you what I really miss, it's only having a person, yeah I now, that sounds very bad, I am heartless and bla bla, but I have not finished yet! The problem is that I really miss care about you, to listen about your day or your cotidian problems. I miss the sound of your voice and even the structure of your sentences (yep, everyone write different in some aspects). But let's back to the humanless nature, I miss have someone to care about it, and you was perfect for that role! Don't misunderstand me, you have a lot of "oportunity areas" for improvement.

I hate this situation, but little by little, I start the demolition of all of that. It's hard, everytime I remember...

Now I fell less human, like I really hate emotions and stuff, I want to destroy humanity again and maybe stole the christmas and things like that. Maybe I never was very human, and I just build artificial emotions, but hey, for me they were very real.

I don't regred been an artificial human, it felt nice. But now, well it's a war in my head, "hope vs hate", is very interesting.

At the end, I know it's dead, but it's hard to admit it. I just hope you are OK, maybe I will never know it, and for that is just a wish.

Now I am in that pahse when I don't want to feel anything anymore in life... a little dramatic (like always)... Humans why?!

Only in my mind

You know what is funny? I don't know what I told you before is real and what not. I mean, how can I be sure that what I am telling you at this moment is real, I think everything is tricky, I always manipulate the information according with the situation. Or, maybe everything was real, in each different moment.

Think about it, I am capable to change my mind, I can choose what is good and what is bad for me, I can rewrite every thought about facts or people, I fed one idea or another, then I am able to feel with more intensity every ilusion that I create. So for a moment I probably was be very indiferent, then I was complete crazy about that idea, and then it is like "bah it's not the big deal".

Every feeling is fed by ourselves, if we forgot feed it, will die eventually, if you never think about it, that idea will disapear. That's why if you feel bad, you need to distract yourself and then make different activities... Then you can replace the pain or the same, with another memory. Or try a something new!

It's always real, but I always have to work with every idea that I want to conserve.

My mind is clear now, I am the one who make the choises, and this time, I chose lose all that memories, create a bad feeling about it and never look back.

Move

I am a shame. I never expected to fail in that way. I always was thinking I was capable to make you happy. I was learning all I could. An in the end, in a rare and controversial point, I failed. And something broke. I felt very bad about it, all was my fault,but at the end I was thinking: Everything is my fault. nevertheless I realize that is true, everything is my fault, but that is because I am the only one who move the pieces,

I am not sure if we are playing rol and you want to be the storyteller, or you are waiting to something magic happen. I have made a big effort to this relation did work, I always said to myself that everything is true and all of that worth it. But apparently you have a different plan, you prefer makes me feel in the uncertainty, never saying yes or not, instead of making me feel safe, you always show me an unestable view. So, yeah, everything is my fault, and I want to fixed it, but only with one condition.

You need to show a minimum piece of interest, that you really care for this works, you only need to demostrate a tiny tiny sample of affection. Tell me with your actions that you want this, that you believe in a future of us. If you don't, then all of this doesn't make sense.

I am exhausting of play this game and never see the top, I love this game, I enjoy a lot, but it's hard and takes a lot time, so now I need to know if it will become in something else or I have to stop playing it. Don't misunderstand me, I am always going to love you, but I will be a watcher instead a player. It's really hurting me to saying that, because I always believed in the posibility.

Please react, please decide. Now it's your turn to move the pieces. Break something, or break me.

You are Fake

So you are complete sure than everyone in the world is going to like you. Because you are very good manipulating people. You can fool everyone else, but not me. I can see throught you, I can see and I can feel the empty, You are very hurt inside of your mind.

I'm sorry, I offer you free love, with nothing in exchange, but I was wrong! That's absurd! Ridiculous! Why would I give something so valuable to a person like you... You don't have anything to offer to this world. I can't give free love, I'm broken.

I'm an sociopath too, I'm not scare of you, I play your game and now it's over. The really shame part is admit I was fooled with your tricks, now, how I am going to tell to my family than you are only a fake person.

Maybe I can be pourly expresive. But my feelings are very real. You are empty! You and your dark deepness are a big and real monster. I hope some day you can change your mind, because if you continue in this way, you will never be happy.

Sometimes I have fear to hurt people, you don't have that fear. I'm a robot, but you are a dispecable creature. Yes, I though I can fix you... And I will be there, waiting for you, if you want to make better.

I will not play your game anymore, I am real.

Don't scare me

I have fear.

I feel unsecure.

I have fear of fail, of don't be enough.

I'm not ready.

I only have a plan, but I don't know how I gonna make it.

I hate the situations, where i don't have the control.

I don't want to fail.

I'm scare.

Why I am so coward?!

All that insecurities around me.

I don't know if my decisions are the right ones.

Probably I will have many mistakes.

I feel lost.

Don't make me feel I am wrong.

Don't say me what I have not to do.

Don't scare me.

The act of falling in love and keep falling down

I think about it so much, because I am trying to control it. I think about it like a mechanic or logical process. What makes it grow? What can destroy it? Some days it's beautiful, inspire me to be a better person and works like a drug, I forget my problems and I feel very good... The other days it's painful, awful, grotesque, it's rough, I want to stop it, that distract me a big part of the day... And the real problem is all that is in my head.

I could leave everything about her, but I choose to suffer, hold the pain and keep enjoying the good moments. It's difficult to accept it but sometimes, like in my case, this is only for a limit season, as the time and the factors allow it. One day all that will stop, and like a life, will disappear... And just like I said at the beginning, everything remain in my head. For a long period I will keep remember everything what could be. But let's be honest, anything of that could be, because it's an invention of my mind, that's what falling in love is all about, illusion.

It's easy to identify: First of all, you start to thinking about the other person so much, everything reminds you her existence... The second important part is, you want to be more time close of that person...She becomes very important in your life. And then you should accept it, because it's too late... you already fell in love... Warning! It's dangerous!

The next stage is when the situation becomes more complicate, you now have a virtual image of that person in your mind, you start to idealize her, you accept her just like she is (Yes, I am still using female gender, but it's my case! Use your imagination and change the syntax). And even you try to improve yourself to be a better person, even you take notes about what she likes. But remember! No matter what you think, it's no real yet! All that is an illusion that you made. You think you know her, you think you know what she likes... But, in name of science, that has not been proven!

You will try, despite all the things, help her, make her life better, everything to see her happy. The drug effect start and you don't care your own happiness, because at that moment you can be happy if she is happy. Probably at this time you have a long term plan with that person in your head, you already plan all your future together.... At least, you have targets in common... The future is uncertainly you should be conscious of this.

Then magic is out... And everything is gone... But I have not gotten to that part... So I will talk about it later, because in my particular case, it's disappear faster, like to remove a adhesive band from my skin... We talk about it later...

But the real big problem is when you are not reciprocated (What a word!), that is horrible because you have a great imagination... And that virtual image of that person is interested in you... But the real person have other ideas... Awkward... And it's complicated because now your pride is in game, your feelings are tense, and everyone hate the ruined plans... It hurts! You can control it, you hate the situation, but now you don't have anything, you waste your time, your imagination, your future time... Now what? Well, I told you...

Yes, you haven't control of this.
Yes, it's difficult to accept.
Yes, she doesn't like you at the same level.
No, you are not pathetic, neither a bad person.
No, it's not the only one for you.
No, your life is not ruined.
And no, you will fall again in the future.

At this moment, when I thought I have everything in control, but no, because now I am not sure what is going on in your mind... Everything is confusing... I doubt so much that now I don't know what I want... I could kill it everything, you already give me all the tools, I could end with this sorrow.... But what do you want? It's impossible to me try to imagine, I don't trust in my self, I thought know you, but no, I don't...

It's hard to say, but I made my decision very long time ago, I'm going to kill this immortal entity. But life is too short, I will enjoy the good and the bad of this, while it remains...


PD: You shouldn't be worry about me. I'm strong enough to carry this, but don't ask me to stay in pain, because I won't do that, I'm

It's everything about me

Yes, all what I hear it's about me.

Every story about a person it's a comparison with me, every time someone tell me about a new accomplished goal it's a possibility or challenge to me. If you made a plan future, I ask to myself what am I going to do at that time. I'm the only important person in my life. Well, after all I am only conscious of my reality, and that's the only thing I need to take care.

The society? No, that is not important to me, that's only part of my environment, when I born that was already there. I only learn how to survive and how to use it for my benefices, there was a time I tried to be a good citizen, but the people have horrible modals. So, again, I'm the only important, I will not make evil things, but I reduce my activities to achieve my own goals 

If I have a chance maybe I could make something good for other person, probably a person who I like it, a person who it will be useful for me, maybe it's a source of fun, jokes, good talks... 

Friends? Well the friendship it's a tool to make us feel better, more comfortable in this world, we need someone who can understand us (at least a part of us) and we need someone who have the patience to listen to us and even the smart enough to have an answer. It's very useful when we need talk about ourselves, or when we need another perspective, but in the end is only a tool. By the way we can have some kind of affection, but is more like a fear to lose them, and we try hard that our friends feel great with us. Because it's difficult to find persons who are capable to tolerate us. So if you are useful, I am going to keep you. But my priorities are more important than theirs, if my affection way doesn't work with them, well that is a problem, for them of course.

This is not pride, this is Reason. The most cold perspective that I have, the most honest panorama about relationship and people. We are responsible for what we feel and what we decided, the others' feelings it's their problems. If my lifestyle affect you, well you should keep distance. 

That's why you have to be careful with what you say to me.

Are you saying that you only like people because is nice? Yeah right, think about it

Quantum personality

I always think I am the same person all the time.No matter the passed time, the changes in my personality are not radical.

So, who are we really? I am different person with every person? Maybe.


In phylosophy exist two positions: Everthing change (Heraclito) and Nothing change (Parmenides), well at least that is the short version... In our life, probably we can guess we don't change because we are the same tool to measure this change, everything is relative, and we are the reference. But I can see the change, even in the writting of this blog, what a shame!

We are the consecuence of all events in our life. We are subject to the random situations of life as much as of ours as that the others around us. That means we should be always changing, but it's more complicated than that. We maintain our postures and opinions about some particular topics, we can debate and we can informate about new subjects, we can change our opinion... We react in the same way to some events, but we can experiment new emotions and change the perspective of the life. But we are always the same person, in theory...

Some persons say that we maintain our character, the capability of control ourselves, the time reaction, our intelligence and our likes. We are the combination of a lot of neural conections in our brain, only a injure can change drastically. But the conections change every day,  some memories are erased, some new knowledge take the place. Every day there is new content available on Internet. We learn new things and we can like new things. Depending of your confortable zone and the times you go out of there, you probably change more.

But let's back our premise, we change with the people whom we coexist. It have a certain logic, because every person is different, a different serie of events, and that is the interesting part of meet new persons. We can exchange our opinions, we can listen a diferent point of view, we can know very different experiences of ours and their reactions. It's a pleasure meet someone who can understand a part of us, but that is the point is only a part of all, and I think that is what motives us to be different with every person.

We change depending of our listener, with this particular person we create a local posture, a local sense of humor, we create experiences and stories in common. Sometimes the differents are more remarkable, because the behavior has a more deep level of trustness. But if we have same level of trustness, it's probably a compatible behavior with more persons. You can separe for a long time for these person, but it's probably this local elements continue, or even better, have new but compatible content.

If you meet more people, you probably can meet more about yourself.

This is my pride

I am that voice whom tell that we are right, we are very valuable, and we don't need the opinion of anyone. Because we know what we do, our limits and which is our reality.

We are always  working to be stronger, smarter and even funnier than anyone else. Sometimes I need to be very cruel to make a point. I only want respect for us, I will fight and I will be mad if it's necessary. We know we always can be better and we deserve the best.

This is pride: I had let you do whatever you want, because I was curious of your existence. I hate you, you trampled me, you humiliated me, and the worse part, it was for nothing.

You are not worth it. That's what I think.

But for now, you are the living proof that I'm weak and fragile. I will work in solve the weakest point that you showed us. Further, you always remember me that I made a mistake. I don't need that in our life. I will show you, who I am, I will destroy your memory, I will demonstrate to us that we are worth more than this situation. It doesn't matter what happen to you in the future, because I only care about ourselves. Yes, it was not your fault, it was mine, but that is the point, we don't fail, so you will never exist.

This is pride: You only had one chance, and it's over.

The real truth

Many people try to convince you to believe in the same things they believe, some of them tried harder than others, because they are sure his true is the only true.

The beliefs cover almost everything: sports, religion, economy, conspiracy, life goals, best super hero... And is probably you will never agree.

You can speak with different people about those topics, everyone have his personal opinion and have something to say... (well at least, the people who thinks). The problem begin when one of you try to impose your posture, you can trow many arguments to defend your belief, but certainly you won't be able to change his mind (well, as long as the people you choose are smart). But how we could know if your truth is the unique truth and the more true.

In science we should be able to accept new hypothesis, therefore we are more open minded and we can debate, research and experiment, then is our goal to find the truth. There is a big difference with the fanatics, they don't need evidence to talk, they only need believe in their own things, that is why exist so many problems, they don't want to argue about the matter.

But, you should say something to other people or you should keep your thoughts for yourself? I think we have the freedom to express our opinion and the people have enough reasoning to decide if they believe us a little or nothing, even they can counter argument and give us new information about the topic we don't know.

The other problem is, some of that beliefs are bad things (well at least for the most of the people who believe en rights and the freedom... Because we can't establish what is a bad thing for now, is the same thing, most of our concepts about ethics are invents of more humans based on more human behaviors) and if this kind of people are fanatics, well that is a big trouble... Make some of them change his mind, it's a long and painful way that no one should take. You will need a lot of time and patience, you need bring more information, scientific facts and even other people who believe in the same way you do.

In the end there is not a real truth, nevertheless some people refuse to believe that... I don't fight with them because is a waste of time, furthermore i don't have proves of the truth, i only think in life and stuff.

Sometimes you just need accept it

There are many things we want to do in our life, but some of us don't meet limits and when we trace our goals, we aim to high and don't measure the impact... On the other hand there are many factor influencing the nature of the world, and thus we really don't have control of the situation. We only have our decisions, and sometimes, they are not enough.

The promise to make personal projects, to have a healthy life, to have better habits and leave the vices. The good day when you will be a better person... That time when you will change, never comes. And all that good choices you do o and fail because other people decisions and the random number generator (in real life).

We become frustrated by what happens and the lack of control, but there are one thing we can do in those cases: Accept it. You know what you can control, and what you can do. You know your limits, and you also know when is time to leave and let go. You need to clean your life, you can't have a long to do list, it's simply insane.

There are people out there, whom really don't care what you do or who you are, nevertheless, you don't need care about it, you can try the times you considerate enough and, if they don't be agreed, you just let it go and change the plan.

Stop with the frustration, because is never healthy, and you probably don't get anything good. You should fight, but you need to know when give up and change the strategy.

"You can do anything, but you can't do everything".

It isn't enough for people

I always think be nice with people was enough to have their attention, and maybe with that, somebody likes me. But the people don't care, they need more! Because never is enough.

First at all, you need topics to talk with people, because always are talking about themselves and that is why you continuously need something to say.

I'm boring, because my adventures occur in my mind or in my computer. I always trying to learn new things from the magic world of Internet, and sometimes I'am losing the time in there. But I really don't care go outside and talk with people, if I can learn stuff in my place. Therefore I don't take courses, I don't go to schools... And that is a big problem because, people love meet new people in that kind of place. What a tragedy...

On the other hand, I'm very ok, with my lifestyle... The problem is when i try to meet new people, who don't know me, and thinks than i am like the others... So uncomfortable... Also i think they need the same kind of people to enjoy... Maybe that is the problem, I don't know where is my place in this world... I am so weird.

Why people? Why can you explore new thinking forms? Why are you so closed minds?

I believe i struggle too much... I should search people whom appraise me.

But how can i meet that people? If i can't meet new people? Man, that is so confused... Or maybe not.
Maybe i only need to go outside and meet many different people and experiment until meet the correct people for me... although the problem is i am very "clingy" and that demands me part of my memory and therefore my feelings.

People! please don't hurt me. Be honest and don't talk to me if you don't want a person who really care about you. Stay away and don't be nice with me because i grow so fond with nice people and i am constantly going to try to be nice with you.

I need a manual about how to make friends and, at the same time, don't care about them.

I need to be more interesting for people so... I need to go outside more often.... And I need a new hobbie... something to force me to meet new people... I need to be more tolerant with new people...

My opinions appear to be not enought... Do you believe than i need make more and think less ? That sounds hard!!

My ideas and my speed processor should be acceptable. I don't know.... Life doesn't have sense.

Do not look for me

I really mad with people and their reciprocity-less... Because when someone try to be nice, nobody cares. And that means we should not be nice with people.

Yeah, that is the truth, we don't owe nothing to this world. We are nice because we feel good, and those persons destroy that feelings.

So please, don't look for me, if you don't care, i don't care neither.

I need to stop looking for toxic people, but what can i do, if i care a little... if i'm curious about their life... I am puzzle lover, and people problems are so easy to solve... And then my problems appear and it is not that easy anymore.

But hey, i need attention, that is the real issue, why people don't ask me "how it was my day", my ego need that... I want to tell my stories, that is what life means... But it's ok, someday i am going to do something important and everyone ask about it, and then i will not response... I am so evil....

Ok, maybe only need to find new people who really cares about myself, (not fans, that's awful) something like a good friend... But how people makes friend today in the world... I don't know. But i want to change all my social circle... New people is what i need.

You don't care to the world, that is true... So we ask about people to meeting, to be nice with them and maybe for to be there.

Humans are so complex, and boring, and selfish...

How does it feels?

I feel really sad when i see you, when you are there needing for orders, for commands, like a simple computer.

You are part of the system, but don't overestimate my comment, you are only a pawn, easy replaceable, and you like that way to live, because you don't need to think.

How does it feels that you need someone to tell you how to live?

Are you happy being the someone else puppet? Cause that is what you are when you choose not be free, you life belong to the system. And you go and work and think "yeah, this is what i want", so where is the dreams? Being the best? I don't want to be the best slave... I choose my studies because that is what i like to do, and i need a work for apply them.

But that is not the only problem, you need more than that, you need a society to rule your world, you need specific instructions to how to be a good man. So you follow a trend, and you feel comfort and safe.

I don't blame you, it's hard to be independent, because the freedom can make you crazy, and live like an hedonist, the fun is so attractive and you have so much time, or at least, that's what you think. But the reality is different, you have a limit and you need to be satisfied. 

Are you happy with your life? It's enough good? I think never is enough, but we can have some breaks for clear the mind.

You are alone in this world, and you need to be strong. If you want to follow your dreams, you are late for learn stuff. Why do you need someone tell you that? You will never reach far if you don't work.

How does it feels not be free? I don't want that.

Her (Or at least she)

I recently have so many thinks about what i feel...

How could i know if my feelings are real. If I think they are real, is that a good argue to say they are real?

I really want to believe that your feelings about me are special, but that's only a thing in my mind. The real problem is: Who could i know if you have feelings for me? And how could i know if that feelings are real? I think what i feel is real... But are they real?

The feelings are only a mix of brain signals and hormones, in theory i can control the brain signals but the hormones depend of multiple factors. Maybe are only sensor responses (engineer stuff)... And that means the response is linked to the experiences, the memories...

But if the feelings are just chemistry... When the reaction is over, what's left is real? Or throughout the hormones are present, those feelings are real.

If you feel something sometime, are that some-feeling real? or just some real? Are my thoughts real just because they are mine?

What if a believe you have feelings about me, and you actually don't have any of them. If i believe those are real, are those real?

And what happend if you tell me about your feeling, and you lie, If i believe you, are the feelings real?

If you make me feel happy, are my feelings for you real? Or i have only feelings about your actions. Thus, if i'm only a lot of memories, the people that i know are only an array of memories in my brain about them.

I think about the feelings, cause i have feelings, but i don't know anymore if they are real... Cause you don't have them or, at least, you tell me that you don't. Although the feelings are changing all the time, because people change, and that means you can change your feelings in the future...

So for me, what a i feel are not real, until i will be conscience about my feelings... And what you feel, maybe i never know the answer, only if i ask... But you give me a answer before (and i don't like it, that make it unreal?).

I can influence your environment... and... i don't know... Maybe one day you give me a different answer. Are you real with me?

That time when i don't hate the life

I don't know why sometimes i have those moments, but they feel nice! It is like i want really have a long and good life. When i realize that there is a lot of thing i want to do.

It's like have a good new, or smile for fun, smell a good scent, or see something beautiful.

Yeah, I know "desire makes us miserable" (Buddhism word)... But that's ok, because i feel good when that happens. Is that life? Or is that happiness? Perhaps be happy is only for the present, but the imagination is so powerful, i can feel it and maybe never happen.

Great, I feel so excited about that, maybe these little moment are my most powerful motivations to keep trying hard.

I want to do so many things so i need to do a list, maybe another day i going to burn it, because sadness! No problem, more good times will appear. I don't hate people for have better life than me (At this moment...), they motivate me in a negative way...

For now, i going to enjoy my moment, maybe tomorrow i going to try something new and learn some useful stuff.

If you are reading this, please feel no hated for me in the past! (i can't tell you how i going to think in the future).

It's late or not (for a change)

Yes, i'm back with another self-debate.
At this moment, i'm a big failure for me (others don't matter), so i was thinking, we hear a lot about take chances and oportunities, and how we lose it cause the time doesn't wait anyone.

It's late, you lost your oportunity of your life, and everyone knows that you are a looser if you don't even tried. So there i am, with a big depression and i still complain about my way to life.

No, it's no late for a change in my life, i can learn new stuff, i can meet new people, and i can live like only me know. Only need a little push to start a new project, only need to remeber how i am, and why all the people say those words: "Cause you are..."

It's late, maybe... But not that all... Yes, i am getting old and my brain is going to down his perfomance (yes, for me is an "he"), but i can try to fight with that, i cann't live thinking that i don't made all i can. I need to be smart, that's my thing... and be funny... (yeah... we're going to work with that later).

I need to do a lot of stuff, and everytime i see other people proud of his steem, i feel sick, cause i hate that narcisism, but the real thing is i feel jelous of his perfect life (their life of lies... but in their world, is perfect), i can feel that way, i never will be enought for me (i blame my parents for that) so, i need to keep trying.

It's late and i lost a lot of oportunities, but... i have enought time to recover myself. I need to be me, and i want it because that is my proud, the only important thing for my little brain and my unfullness life.

Time to change.

Good bye my friend

As if all my life were not enough, now you are gone.

I going to miss you so much, cause you was a true friend.

Maybe you don't understand words, but you understand love, and that is what matters.

You leave me so many memories, over 16 years, at this moment it is 2/3 of my life, i can't remember my life without you.

I need apologize with you, cause i leave you so many times, even when i go to study my career, i let you in home, with the family. Every time i back i loved to see you.

I didn't know how to be a good keeper, and i'm sorry for that, may be that will be help you... maybe not... Life is very strange. You didn't care about it, and i appreciated that so much.

You always be happy, and i want remember you in that mood. We never really fight, we just have differences.

I will keep your memory for the rest of my life, i promise you.

And I going to remind everyone, you was a member of this family and you always going to have your place.

That was the most painful farewell in my life, but i'm glad now you are in peace.

This is the end my dear friend, i always going to love you.

I am a big disappointment

No, this is not about my terrible English.

At this time, i could count my uncompleted tasks in life (even in the year), i only fail and fail again.

Probably is my fault for aim big targets, but it's people fault cause they say me that i can do it...

But is my fault again because i make they think than i'm good and smart (and handsome... shut up self stem), although it's they fault because they don't test me in a hard situation...

Anyway i have the guilt, i allow this affect me, all about this stuff depress me. Cause i'm not enough good for that people who say i am good in things. But i should not worry about what other people say about me. So, the problem is i can only disappoint myself...

I really want be better...

Internet says, you should only compare with your older you, maybe Internet is right. But it's hard.

I know what i can do, but maybe i am to lazy to do it, i can't blame other people for not push me to better things, maybe in my childhood, but now... I'm totally capable to do things.

"You can do anything, but you can't do everything". That phrase touches very depth in my thoughts.

So that mean, i need to choose things, and i need organize my time, and avoid distracting stuffs (like games and Internet because they have a big impact in my time and my reward mental system).

I hate myself in this moment. But, at the same time, i hate fail to people and myself, and i enjoy challenges... So, here i come.

How to be better in school

Ok maybe i'm not the best person to say something about study, because i hated so much... It's so boring! But hey! I survived and i have my bachelor degree (in anytime). Maybe a lot of people are gonna say things like "Yeah, but you are smart" or "But i can't", and a long list of prejudices.

I will make a list of things in my mind about this topic... so, this will be fast.

1. Be curious. If you learn something new, maybe you can think new questions about that subject, like in history, a certain year for a whatever event, you may learn what happens in the same time in another region, or the consequence for that event.

2.- Learn new things. Everyday if you can, probably not in school. In this time and maybe the time when you are reading this (Except if the Internet collapse... although may be you can't read this... anyway), you can investigate in Internet and learn a lot stuff, sometimes useful and others... well i learn how to tying shoelaces faster... you judge it.

3.- Enjoy learning. Many people don't care about what they learn, but you can share your new knowledge about whatever random fact and be satisfied if the listen to you. Any fun fact can be useful in the future, trust me.

4.- Learn in your particular way. I know so many persons who says "Maths is really hard", i think that is because they try to learn the method of the professor, and they fail because his professor stinks teaching. So, you can see algorithms in maths, and you can try to do Inverse engineering and find the way that work, then you can make your own method and save the day. That's what i try to teach to other people, think by yourself.

5.- Memory is practice. If you can't memorize a lot of useless facts or words or definitions, you can use absurd technique to learn it, like nemotechnique (or however writes in english). You need to practice this stuff, maybe with in random book, a random paragraph, and repeat it. Or maybe you can make didactic material and study with that, sometimes the make process works more than the study. And the infallible method, "play" memorize with another person, that helps a lot.

6.- Learn with someone else. The academic path is hard and heavy, but if you have some friend, maybe it will become more enjoyable and fun (I hope, if not, what kind of friend have you?). And you can add, like a negative motivation, a rival or people saying to you that "you can't", that helps a lot, cause you can show them back his mistake. But seriously, with friend or a random happy people, you can compare results, you can study together , you can make team and more important, you can enjoy learning.

That's all for now, maybe i will update the post in a future if i remember more tips (Historically that never happens). If you estimated reader have another advice for the future generations, please share with us in the commentary section.

(And please, tell me my mistakes in my writting)