Here we go again

Yes, I know, every time I came back it is because things are going bad somehow, and it is partially true. But nothing to worry, I have complete control of this darkness.

It has been a while since the last time I wrote here, and it has been due to my laziness mostly because I always remember that I can write about absolutely anything and no one would care, or should care, in the end, this is just a random blog of opinions and basically abandoned.

Let's make short recapitulation: A lot of questionable bad decisions, with a lot of ups and downs, sounds like just life, right? I mean I am the most boring person in the world, so obviously my adventures haven't been that dangerous or exotic. I met many parts of the world, a thing that for the time when I started this blog never expected.

Who I was when I started this blog? Just a random boy with Internet access, with a lot of thoughts and a lot of random ideas, who just wanted to write and send a message, did I wanted to be heard? That I am not sure, because I am a very shy person, and I have been since those days. Life was of course easier, fewer things to worry, and just complain about people, for what I have learned they are most of the cases the problem. What they do and why they do it. But in those days I was also dealing with a bunch of teenagers who barely use their minds, they were more focused on stupid stuff, they didn't even care about learning, I mean it was their only job, and they failed.

Who I am now? Well, I am a bitter young adult with Internet access, with a lot of thoughts and a lot of random ideas, who doesn't care about send it a message, now I just care in feel that I am taking the ideas out of my mind. Because I like to think that helps me to organize my ideas.

Is there any lesson that I would send to my younger self. Mmm, do whatever you want, never be afraid, most of the authorities sucks, don't trust people... I think most important, never take things personal, because many people want to be mean with you because you are smarter and bla bla bla. If you have control over your emotions, their words are meaningless. so don't worry. People come and go, there are more important people that will appear in your life, and whatever you do, be brave.

I was planning to throw a lot of negative thoughts, but I guess I wait to long for that, and now I am more stable, too bad, I need to reflex on my emotional moments to inspire me for more content. Nevertheless, I have more ideas of things that I would like to write.

If you ask why suddenly I am writing on English instead of Spanish? That is because it is always a good practice, and as you can see, I am more fluid than I would expect it. But, the next big step, I will continue writing things on German, because I need even more practice on that, but instead of bringing thoughts, I will write stories... Because it should be a simpler vocabulary, but it will be hard in terms of creativity, I don't remember when I wrote the last tale... Many years, so, the quality will be rubish, don't judge, maybe one day it will get better.

Also, I have some more thoughts to share, next one is about social media and isolation... But I don't know if I should do it on Spanish or on English... I will throw a coin.

The changing plan

At the beginning of my conscious mind, probably when I had 13 or 14 years, I was looking for the meaning of life, why I am here? And already from that point I was a very egocentric person.... And for that my original plan was: I am going to change the world! I am going to be someone very important in the story of humanity, I am going to revolutionize the world!

Then time pass, I talk with other persons, with the same plan, it was nice... But then certain competence start on me, that i wanna be the very best that no one ever was... oh wait... And then the plan change: To be someone very important, very rich and powerful, and then I will be able to change the world!!

The next phase was more simple... I was in the university, I realize that make something important for the world will be very hard, and the science is very expensive! So, the first step should be be rich! Then make some important advance in science... and maybe that could help to the humanity...

And just before I ended my bachelor, I was being more simple, the plan change: I only want to make some innovator product, and maybe that will be useful... in some way.

Now I don't know, maybe I just want to have a good life, good money, live experiences (because Millenals), and that's all, maybe be happy... just maybe...  And, if it's possible, make some science.... and with some luck, some of my experiements could be important... and maybe then... the world be changed.

You choose... poorly...

Well, now doesn't matter!

Ok every choise you make, brings consecuences, you know it! And every time you have to leave something more, you lose something to try to win something else. You have to take riks in your life, because if you don't, it will be boring.

Well, if you choise brings you happyness, congratulation! The post ends for you!

Now for the bitter and sad persons, I know that feel bro! I can understand pretty well what is the frustration, what is think a lot about a decision and finally when you get enough corage, it results in a very bad decision... Ya ya.. Everyone says the same "If you learn something it wasn't a bad decision", well guess what? It's a bad decision, and it cost to you something and a someway (Comodin words win).

Ok, now what? Yoy plan get sad for the rest of your life? Pff! What a shame of you! Go on, keep living, confront the situation, solve the problem! Or are you dead? Well if that is the case I'm sorry for you, it was a really bad situation and you don't even learn anything! But hey! Others will learn from your mistakes! Well... If it was something public... If not... Ok forget that.

My point is, you need to continue with your life, yeah you have right to be sad.... But just for a moment! Then it's time to the next, the next gamble! Life is excited! You need more mistakes in your life, it's good material for inspiration, the desperation is always a good motivation stuff... I hate it... But it works.

Your instinct for survive will be activated! Use it for bigger challenges!

Don't surrender yet! Well actually, surrend in that thing, and change for another better.

It's ok, you have time, you are alive. it worth!

What do you bet for a very happy day?